I gave up on myspace, I gave up on this log. Now I am back on. Cause I have no where else to vent. I can't vent at home cause my boyfriend lives in his own world, all my friends do other things and I dont really have anyone to talk to on my level. My parents are both socially inept, making my siblings socially inept and my father gave us morbidity and sarcasm most of our lives and made all of us negative or realists. 

Its the time of my life when I realized how much living sucks. I remember when I was younger and I had dreams of doing alot. But then life comes by and smashes all my dreams. Or it makes it harder to achieve knowing the realities of life. I went to college and only became smarter and still am poor thanks to my student loans. I feel as though getting a degree doesn't mean crap. sure it gets  you a small margin of jobs in where one of the qualifications is to have a degree, but so much people have degrees it doesn't really matter. Our country might go into recession soon, thanks to George Dubya Bush Jr.       

the only light of my life is my bunny. She is so cute and soft and so funny. Makes me want to get more bunnies and be the crazy ole bunny lady who lives alone with her bunnies. That might not be such a bad idea. In case of nuclear war, I would have my bunnies for food and warmth if it came down to that. The rate the country is going I wouldn't be surprised something drastic might happen in the future.

A daily dose of depression...

So depressed....about life. About working, about going to school. I spent over 17 grand only to become smarter. I found in becoming smarter how much the world really sucks. Ignorance is bliss, I suppose.

I don't think I will ever find a career. More like a job to continue this vast life in this depressing world. If you really look at the whole picture are headed up towards shit creek. Consumerism at its best, with people throwing things away like we have a place to throw it. I hope Mother Nature kicks us in the ass some more. Isn't hurricane Katrina, the tsumani in the East and all those little other hurricanes not giving us a hint? Honestly, we deserve whatever mother nature got in store for us. We are just shitting on our residence anyway without any respect to any other living creatures. I hope mother earth does kick our asses. Especially Duyba's...haha

I notice that people have become much ruder to each other. While taking a trip in DC, no one ever says thank you when you buy stuff. In Oahu, the "thank yous" seem so false. People talking on thier cell phones while they ring you up irritates me. People have more and more road rage lately too. People shove you without saying a simple sorry. What is this world coming to?

Several people in one of my classes said they don't want to have kids cause they don't want their kids brought up in this world. Now I can really see where they are coming from. Things and people were different twenty years ago when I was growing up. I can only imagine how my parents feel. Lately, I have been thinking about not having kids either. What for? So they can grow up wanting Elmo and video games and nice clothes and waste water by leaving the sink while they brush thier teeth and  have road rage when they get thier drivers licenses and throw out packages of fast food out their windows while driving? Screw that.

Wooohoooo! (jumping up and down with glee)

The democrats won the house! The democrats won the house!

(Insert ROCKY music theme)

And they might just win the Senate yet, or atleast now they are fifty-fifty.

(Insert Darth Vader music theme)

The evil republicans have lost!! But Evil Lingle won....(me frowning)

(Insert Star Wars concerto music, where Luke kicks ass)

Woohoo! Imagine me jumping up and down clapping my hands in glee!

Im back!!

Oh how I missed you xanga. Im back....I was on myspace for a month, then I decided to kick it back into xanga.

How was that power outage? My boyfriend was grouchy cause he couldn't eat meat.

I was thinking about living on the big island really made me a stronger person than these Oahu-ans. I didn't even get up out of bed as the earthquake happened, although I did think North Korea was bombing us for a couple minutes. I couldn't fathom that Oahu would actually have an earthquake. my boyfriend mumbled, "its just an earthquake" and I was like oh, whoopee and went back to sleep. Then I get awakened by all the neighbors in the building who ran outside and started making big noise. Its just an earthquake. gee, I was there when the 1983 one happened on the big island. now that one was scary, this was one was peanuts.

Just like driving in the rain. People in Oahu can't drive in the rain like Hilo people can....I guess living on the big island has advantages. I can go fifty in the rain and know when to stop....not like these Oahu drivers who drive like old ladies....

I know I said no more xanga but this is too funny.

http://www.lebonze.com/playground/bunnylove.htm

if you lucky to get the to the end, its very much a bunny porno flick.....